counter-intention
wishlessness
counterdesire
the grass is always greener on the other side
well-wishing
egoistical
envy
bind hand and foot
go sour
disoblige
compliance
disobliging
inflexible
impulse
kicking and screaming
adversion
be one's own worst enemy
leniency
indulgence
deny oneself
lenience
nondesire
go one's own way
grudgingly
velleity
thanks for nothing
more power to someone
diswant
conservativist
frustrative
retract
conservative
thwarting
frustrating
self-indulgence
cantankerous
ornery
whoosh
crotchety
flaker
last thing one needs
selflessly
wishless
self-abnegation
omission
malgré lui
overpass
oil and water don't mix
desirelessness
neglect