escapist
counterintervention
gainstriving
self-despair
death spiral
chocolate soldier
summer and winter
take on water
counterstruggle
tough
tough out
zugzwang
live on
Indian wrestle
doomward
tussling
turn against
step to
trying
release
reason
put one's affairs in order
turn
die hard
shoot oneself in the foot
live on the edge
eke out
go one's own way
walk away
overlive
take
tussle
go through
hack it
pay dearly
chaser
box oneself into a corner
pursuer
hack
last out
hnnggg
measure swords
paint oneself into a corner
sickness unto death
make one's bed and lie in it
skate on thin ice
struggleful