on the outside, looking in
social alienation
demotivated
afraid
discourage
skunk at a garden party
revulsed
entirely
amotivational
self-absorption
soft bigotry of low expectations
out of one's system
discouraged
demoralised
purge
disheartened
prodigal
selfish
demoralized
disappointment
made of stone
abhorrence
letdown
unimpression
disconnect
unimpressedness
absentation
underprivilege
meh
underprivileged
insensitive
time heals all wounds
lonely
abnormal psychology
apathy
alienate
dissatisfied
unedifying
uneagerness
tone-deaf
flustrated
antifrustrationism
taboo
estranging
tabu
phlegm
willies
not be 100 percent on something
parade passed someone by
go astray
impassiveness
averted
lower one's sights
indifference
zestless
stolidity
miss
discontent
emotionlessness
impassivity
cool
unemotionality
out of one's element
latent hostility
cast down
on the wrong foot
maladaptive
no good deed ever goes unpunished
tension
idiotropic
thanks for nothing
what am I, chopped liver
die
no chill
unmotivation
low-spiritedness
absence
detached
disinterested
remove
alienation
badbye
self-interest
disfavour
it's lonely at the top
absentness
dissatisfyingly
malcontent
malcontentism
dislike
paranoid
distrait
depression
mailed-in
get lost
uncollectedly
nonhostility
unhostility